im angry. so what.

dati i recieved this quote that says:

there can never be a better cure for a broken heart than to love again... or
sumthin like that. nakalimutan ko na yung exact words eh..

una pa lang i totally agreed with the point. kaya nga i have a diary entry i
entitled the many faces of my defense mechanisms (post war editions) eh..

"in my complex life of faliing in [and out of] love, i have developed defense
mechanisms that saved me from feeling a lot of the side effects."

basta, mga mini-crushes ko un..

hmmm.. now i have a theory why only falling in love again can make one
forget about the past flame.

minsan kasi, we were so happy when we are with the person we loved na
kahit we are actually over him, nabubulag tayo ng mga memories. this happy
facade of a life with that person makes us in love, not with the person but
instead, with the idea of being in love with him. sino nga naman ang ayaw ng
kilig moments at rare encounters, di ba?

parang we are caught in the middle of letting go kasi it's over and of wanting
to get back because it was happy. unfortunately, mas madalas nating pinipili
ang huli kaya nagkakaroon tayo ng stages of depression and feeling lost kasi
narerealize natin gradually na being happy again with that person is already
impossible.

natutuldukan lang ang in-love-with-love syndrome when we find another
person that can possibly bring back the happiness we once felt and the
happiness that we can never feel again with the old one.

hayy.. but love is a never-ending quest. kaya nga, kapag nagmahal tayo ulit,
we seldom compare the new with the old. aun nga sa isa ulit quote:

"sino ba ang mas matimbang, yung bago na minamahal ka ng sapat o yung dati na
hanggang ngayon ay walang katapat?" (di yan ang exact words ah...)

kaya nga din, during the earlier stages of relationship eh nagkakaroon ng
doubts kung mahal mo ba ang isang tao o panakip-butas lang xa... i think
normally, ang nangyayari ay pareho. panakip-butas dahil we need someone to
bring the color back into our lives. tpos mahal mo xa kasi of all people, you
chose him bring back that color. it's up to how passionate you are on the
relationship kung makakamove-on ba kayo from that stage to the stage
wherein you are really sure na you love that person because of who he is and
because of what he does for you.

mushy naman...parang ang-expert ko ah! weh anna li..

// posted by hello there @ 2:20 PM